--- slug: fn-src-email-16e6d15f72530871 title: "Re: Thank You For Your Help" kind: source_email status: published hash: cbbce24361a6ab1f828fe623cbb6d46bf09bab8e84c063bd743af4d63ed47572 created: 2026-10-11T06:45:06.986Z updated: 2026-10-11T06:45:06.986Z summary: "" tags: [] above: ["[[fn-index-emails]]"] below: [] adjacent: [] nested: [] --- # Re: Thank You For Your Help # Email ## Attachments No attachments. ## Message From: Cyrus Massoumi To: Sven Subject: Re: Thank You For Your Help Sent: Thu, 14 Nov 2019 19:23:05 -0800 Sent (UTC): 2019-11-15T03:23:05.000Z Sent (America/Los_Angeles): 2019-11-14T19:23:05.000-08:00 Account: 62ca724fdabf40deba435e42eb88ef18 Gmail message: 16e6d15f72530871 Thread: 16e6ccf8d501058e Message-ID: CAMG-JC-2BkU=LSTXex52gNqEKDsFSPV00o3nnR2bre03bO-Neg@mail.gmail.com References: CAMG-JC9Gi6BEpqdLBUqyJJYPQNhb-OWENbGd51gxLaZKbJGT0w@mail.gmail.com, 8351F11D-3E94-479B-AF7E-41328BC2305E@aol.com, CAMG-JC9-PT9UPsPbr9jGTiw+VgVwjgkdHeLBzJDiuX2b4s7STw@mail.gmail.com, CF024032-9CB2-4802-BC4B-AD5CC10B8738@aol.com, CAMG-JC9mzC9-+GYNoT8bCraPBa70=_oWLNcGDM_V69w7yOT_MQ@mail.gmail.com Body coverage: full Body format: markdown ## Body In any event I will clean and think on these issues, tonight. On Thu, Nov 14, 2019 at 6:52 PM Cyrus Massoumi <[massoumi.cyrus@gmail.com](mailto:massoumi.cyrus@gmail.com)> wrote: Perhaps you don’t. After my godfather died I did not grieve. In any proper way. After my grandfather died I did not grieve. I was here, with his wife, within 45 minutes, and I stayed with her until she tried to kill herself. I spent less than 12 hours with her in almost 8 years, as I couldn’t tolerate the shame of her status, calling for him in the night, and enduring the screaming I heard nightly from my mother at her, as she tried to clean her. I stayed in my room, the whole day, working, so I wouldn’t have to see her body. I listened to my mother cough, for months, I used to feel as if this place had my family in it, even when I went months without talking to her. It still felt full with her in it, and it felt bizarre when she was out. I felt every emotion, as I felt she was being turned against our patriarch, but, my grief was relegated to a few hours, as I watched her die. Since then, I put it on a shelf. I put my grief on a shelf, as there is no facing the grief, and weight, of it. There is no grief to be had, when all I ever brought my family was shame, and the abuse I received, in watching my grandmother abuse my grandfather, and my mother abuse my grandfather, I returned in anger towards them all. This place, is not procedural to me, in as much as I’d like it to be. When yesterday I come across my grandfathers notebooks in preparation for his citizenship exam, or I come across invoices which may serve as proof of the wholesale theft he endured, or all of the many books my mother had, as it appears she was excited to be having a child. This family, meant everything to me, and I left everything to my grandfathers children, to reflect the loyalty which I have for my family. It was never shown, and it will never be known, by them. This is a complex place for me, it is cold, and baron, and my mother’s attempts to have a family dinner, seated, which never amounted to much, and always depressed me, seem like a symphony, compared to the silence, now. I am aware, I have to shelve it, and I’m aware, there should be process. Things which should be disregarded, such as those items, send me down rabbit holes, because they have profound meaning, in the context of my life. Yet, procedurally, should be tabled for later. I am, trying, my best. While your comments about disregarding me for a day are fine, your lack of understanding of how these items effect me, the handyman bringing my first realization of grief, forward, for a moment, was much for me. I’m not asking you to put on kid gloves, but, I was abused and loved in this house, and I have never been alone in it. It is, different, than it appears. On Thu, Nov 14, 2019 at 6:33 PM Sven <[lobosven@aol.com](mailto:lobosven@aol.com)> wrote: All you needed to do is focus, work on the stuff of highest priority, work hard and minimize treasure hunting.With me, it would be nice if you listened and thought. I understand your situation, that’s why I came in from the cold. I don’t have the time or the patience to raise another kid. Sent from my iPhone On Nov 14, 2019, at 6:19 PM, Cyrus Massoumi <[massoumi.cyrus@gmail.com](mailto:massoumi.cyrus@gmail.com)> wrote: The man has no respect for me, he was interring I am lucky for my moms death, he like most assumed our topical arguments were indicative of a lack of care which existed. I am alone, which you seem to not understand, as these people who are gone now were all I had. Unlike you, and everyone else, their loyalty to me stood through everything, always. If you have one friend you’re a king. I am without my family, I had four friends I was unaware of. On Thu, Nov 14, 2019 at 6:15 PM Sven <[lobosven@aol.com](mailto:lobosven@aol.com)> wrote: > I’ll finish the 25 Iranian coins and the 10 (7 left) jewelry pieces we picked and the discontinued Brit pounds. > I’ll bring everything else back to you. > I shudder at the thought of you running the show-but that’s your call. > I’m not in the slightest bothered that I need to bring the hammer down-how else to I get through? > Sent from my iPhone > > On Nov 14, 2019, at 6:09 PM, Cyrus Massoumi <[massoumi.cyrus@gmail.com](mailto:massoumi.cyrus@gmail.com)> wrote: > > > > Thank you for your help. > > > > In light of the extraordinary amount of items which require sale its best to bring in people who can remove them and take the haircut on. > > > > You don’t have the time or patience to deal with me in the position I’m in, and I don’t have the emotional bandwidth to absorb the byproducts of the burden this situation is imposing on you, which, you’ve been kind enough to assist me with, but, is doing more harm than good for us both. > > -- > > Sent from Gmail Mobile via IPhone. -- Sent from Gmail Mobile via IPhone. -- Sent from Gmail Mobile via IPhone. -- Sent from Gmail Mobile via IPhone. ## Facts ```json { "platform": "Gmail", "source_id": "16e6d15f72530871", "date_as_recorded": "Thu, 14 Nov 2019 19:23:05 -0800", "from": "Cyrus Massoumi ", "to": "Sven ", "subject": "Re: Thank You For Your Help", "category": "INBOUND", "body_status": "full text (agent capture)", "account": "massoumi.cyrus@gmail.com", "retrieval": "/home/hatch/workspace/email/gmail/67dd7116cac58ef5ae6eefbb3636193e5ae4522f4530cb4629c712be7b18a982.md" } ``` --- **above:** [[fn-index-emails]]