From: Cyrus Massoumi <massoumi.cyrus@gmail.com> To: Sven <lobosven@aol.com> Subject: Re: Strange Feeling Sent: Fri, 19 Jun 2020 22:24:03 -0700 Sent (UTC): 2020-06-20T05:24:03.000Z Sent (America/Los_Angeles): 2020-06-19T22:24:03.000-07:00 Account: 62ca724fdabf40deba435e42eb88ef18 Gmail message: 172d02f0cce4704d Thread: 172d023660f813fd Message-ID: CAMG-JC9PWzhpvHVG8L6GyamsDLW6A+-VBbnxUn5mO7JTDOseVA@mail.gmail.com References: CAMG-JC8CHX_LLRkJ9wf65hZ3NbuPp10MBxvSiCxA13uV2Nf3pQ@mail.gmail.com Body coverage: full Body format: markdown
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She seems concerned that I’m suicidal.
But, I’m kind of annoyed at the idea that my funeral would be unattended.
I never imagined that I could get hit, so many times, in a row.
I’ve just been crying for 2 Days.
I never imagined that I wouldn’t be able to handle it. But, it is, honestly, physically painful, how sad I am.
I would not wish a broken heart on my enemies..... It feels as if my heart is ripping itself out, and trying to find its way back together. Every hour. Off to the doc to get pilled up next week. She’s concerned that I may have gone through too much traumatic shit in a short period of time. Need to get ready to kiss a few years good bye. Last time I went on duloxetine I woke up 3 years later and it felt like a weekend. That sounds like bliss. I should have saved it for when I needed it. -- Regards, Cyrus G. Massoumi t. 415.745.5411 e. massoumi.cyrus@gmail.com
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