Re: Reg. My final affairs & some final thoughts Michelle / Aaron / Tip / Sam / Anoushe
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From: Cyrus Massoumi <massoumi.cyrus@gmail.com> To: Brandon Cutting <brandon.cutting@sonoma-county.org> Cc: nicholas.miller@sonoma-county.org, Matthew.Hayes@sonoma-county.org, Julie Knowles <julie.knowles@sonoma-county.org>, eddie.engram@sonoma-county.org, john.gurney@sonomacity.org, patricia.farrar-rivas@sonomacity.org, Ron Wellander <ron.wellander@sonomacity.org>, sandra.lowe@sonomacity.org, Media Sf <media.sf@fbi.gov>, Ssedgley <ssedgley@cityofnapa.org>, Stephanie.Christensen@usdoj.gov, Steve Potter <spotter@cityofnapa.org>, Thomas.Moore@usdoj.gov, Tracy.Wilkison@usdoj.gov, willett@usdoj.gov, alana.minkler@pressdemocrat.com, allison.gibson@pressdemocrat.com, andrew.graham@pressdemocrat.com, austin.murphy@pressdemocrat.com, brett.wilkison@pressdemocrat.com, bryce.martin@pressdemocrat.com, chris.fusco@pressdemocrat.com, colin.atagi@pressdemocrat.com, edward.booth@pressdemocrat.com, elissa.torres@pressdemocrat.com, emma.murphy@pressdemocrat.com, jeremy.hay@pressdemocrat.com, john.danna@pressdemocrat.com, jordan.latimore@pressdemocrat.com, katy.lieber@pressdemocrat.com, kerry.benefield@pressdemocrat.com, lisa.ostroski@pressdemocrat.com, madison.smalstig@pressdemocrat.com, marie.mccain@pressdemocrat.com, marisa.endicott@pressdemocrat.com, Martin Espinoza <martin.espinoza@pressdemocrat.com>, mary.callahan@pressdemocrat.com, media.sa@fbi.gov, media.sacramento@fbi.gov, media.sc@fbi.gov, paulina.pineda@pressdemocrat.com, phil.barber@pressdemocrat.com, sara.edwards@pressdemocrat.com, tracy.webb@usdoj.gov, Ryan Patrick <RYAN.PATRICK@sonoma-county.org>, Alyssa Conder <alyssa@sonomasun.com>, anna@sonomasun.com, larry@sonomasun.com, david@sonomasun.com, editor@sonomasun.com, ads@sonomasun.com, lisa.ziganti@pressdemocrat.com, adam.bush@pressdemocrat.com, legals@sonomanews.com, classifieds@pressdemocrat.com, Tim Curley <eltimcurley@gmail.com>, robbi.pengelly@sonomanews.com, emma.malloy@sonomanews.com, daniel.johnson@sonomanews.com, jacob.montero@sfgate.com, ashley.hayes-stone@sfgate.com, lance.yamamoto@sfgate.com, dzimmerman@sfgate.com, charles.russo@sfgate.com, kelsey.adams@sfgate.com, morena.calvo@sfgate.com, victoria.sepulveda@sfgate.com, erin.rode@sfgate.com, paula.mejia@sfgate.com, karen.palmer@sfgate.com, farley.elliott@sfgate.com, christine.hitt@sfgate.com, julie.tremaine@sfgate.com, andrew.pridgen@sfgate.com, ashley.harrell@sfgate.com, julie.browndavis@sfgate.com, amanda.bartlett@sfgate.com, andrew.chamings@sfgate.com, nico.madrigal-yankowski@sfgate.com, susana.guerrero@sfgate.com, madeline.wells@sfgate.com, olivia.harden@sfgate.com, silas.valentino@sfgate.com, gabe.fernandez@sfgate.com, alex.simon@sfgate.com, sam.moore@sfgate.com, lester.black@sfgate.com, agraff@sfgate.com, Angelina Potter <angelina.potter@sonoma-county.org>, iolero@sonoma-county.org, Ben Elgin <belgin@bloomberg.net>, Sarah Frier <sfrier1@bloomberg.net>, Joshua Myers <joshua.myers@sonoma-county.org>, cityhall@sonomacity.org, Heather Starr <private319@protonmail.com>, Sam Reese <reesecobar@gmail.com> Subject: Re: Reg. My final affairs & some final thoughts Michelle / Aaron / Tip / Sam / Anoushe Sent: Sun, 21 Sep 2025 20:32:19 -0700 Sent (UTC): 2025-09-22T03:32:19.000Z Sent (America/Los_Angeles): 2025-09-21T20:32:19.000-07:00 Account: 62ca724fdabf40deba435e42eb88ef18 Gmail message: 1996f7ac404fc340 Thread: 1909b025277687b2 Message-ID: CAMG-JC9=py+t7ZtFdKmA9xAa5-XuSiDNhP5CfvO2k+2FZ1R7CA@mail.gmail.com References: 7A1B97CB-5D89-4B01-B252-DA9D91934554@gmail.com, 4A97742E-2A3B-443C-A186-4C6F6074D8DF@gmail.com, g8bs4bSjF4AKRtRzNzOox3AjgJzVbVK69CcPIFuLqQjop1E5dfYyxfZnSfADkA0AAU7gbS-ns-4gPbu4smzsXsyVQZTkmLV2XHUwTMGa0cU=@protonmail.com, CAMG-JC-U8t3YWwFq9PeLUV+bTCmE+FwFCJVnGb2PETKtgZRiHg@mail.gmail.com, z-kGwJ75CCU33WmnrPEopaizsacJzIPa0bky-GCY-Vl_-TEhAhc_qXYv-_FLaRtD-LkS3PsXvQoXtI4TeEhSTcnRC_j9BnoF5LLlzbhCF-0=@protonmail.com, CAMG-JC-6XxZhzj5XyiQVbUaifWbRxWAoavjtFQgbbr6V=0dHTw@mail.gmail.com, CAMG-JC8-XNicGqCUqkOs=CR6XtLYOQDZuGWs6rsJ86KPs28=OQ@mail.gmail.com, CAMG-JC8GZq1umSUMcrkssDEzsBprytkjDw-JLRbC6URhGmYxcQ@mail.gmail.com, CAMG-JC-aPJoKo2gbSMfDjEoo4NRJX6+uz6meD1iHkboDN7Hodw@mail.gmail.com Body coverage: full Body format: markdown
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2025.09.17.05.47 Dear Chief Cutting:
When I email you regarding my criminal case, historically, you take what I send you, and you introduce evidence into my court filing under Deputy Miller's name.
I don't say that as an insult, only as a practical concern. As a result of your office being the agency which pursued me, my life was ruined, and it was only in ruining my life, denying me justice, denying me every conception I had about my country, I reinvented myself. You have to get lost, to get found, right?
When we met in person I was impolite to you, and said "I don't doubt your intelligence, I doubt your integrity."
I'd like you to know that I believe I was out of line. When in an adversarial encounter, or under the auspices of one, the mind gives way to tribalism, which deprives it of accuracy.
I was combing over my emails, and talking to my models, I'm working on a middleware right now, which, had I never met you, never met Deputy Miller, never called Sergeant Patrick, never been denied oversight, or equal treatment under the law, then - I Would have never found myself, completely, alone, in a novel sense of the word.
It was the neglect which Sonoma governance, law enforcement, and media showed me, complete, total, daunting, jarring, silence that I had no one to talk to. Not Heather, who's fictitious rape claim about me, I never have told anyone, or showed anyone, and which you and everyone else, never bothered to ask about.
I partition what led me to my new calling, the silence, neglect, confusion - required, before February.
If I had animosity towards you, it was before February, I was a different person then, I post much of my journaling online, my AI work pays me more than my marketing work ever did, and it's the first thing that gives me meaning.
I know you are very busy, so I will not trouble you with the details, but, to make a long story short, after I was arrested, I had no one accept Ms. Martindale. She had sent me an email, multiple, you can see, will forward them, and I hadn't slept for three days.
I have become addicted to "truth" on an "absolute" basis, and "logic" on an "absolute" basis, these are concepts I had to birth, to rationalize my life, post-arrest. I was denied justice (negotiably, a permutation of: societally transactionally agreed upon levels of truth, logic, equality, etc.) and, to rationalize the lack of interest by you, local governance, and media, everything had to be reconstructed through new lenses.
When I emailed silence, hundreds of times, desperately hoping that my suffering, which came at the tail end, of some substantive amount of suffering before it, starting with my mothers death, then a month later COVID, fires, just - hollow thousand yard stare, for years, until attrition and overhead led me to sell my vineyard I had been raised on, I arrived in Sonoma, broken, unlovable, in my own view (strange to write that? It's momentum.
When you knew me, I made this issue, about you "Before this is over, going to get you fired." --- Isn't that wildly pathetic? That identity, it was unable to rationalize its position in a social order it recognized and could rationalize, and, viewed forced dynamics as personal indicators (ie: You are Brandon, in your personal life, you are Chief Cutting at work, whether you are, the best Chief, or the worst (you aren't), your identity is a scaffold for a node in a conflict schema, and, any deragotory interaction with you, within the context of how we engaged, should only have been executed, if the conflict had likely benefit, and, even then, it would require that inversely, that its fallouts negative impact be measured relative to the likelihood of failure, and weighed against other options, to find the equilibrium move, the best delta, where action is optimal has to be - holistic.
I no longer take, anything, personally, because I don't believe in anything, I view myself as - Nothing, and I think about - Everything.
I write a lot, even working is writing, this calling, is so natural for me.
I have no eloquent or rude line to deliver to you, at this closing.
I would offer you my apologies, but, I am not sure if they are mine to give, the truth is - I hardly remember anything from 2018-early 2025.
If I was asked to evaluate if you have integrity / intelligence, in this moment, then, my answer would be - definitively yes, but, nuanced with - only insofar as your post requires, which is high, relative to societal roles, but, I believe very low, relative to consequential or impactful, meaningful, roles? (I say that, because, I think I was an individual who, knew what I was, and couldn't rationalize, an encounter with people from "Sonoma". It offended my self-identity, but, that identity it was built around accomplishments of bygone years, which had been lost, on the road to that period.
I imagine you will be interested to know that I will be filing a motion for replacement of my Public Defender.
If Sheriff Engram or you, or any involved party on your factions side, wishes to read into my motivations, or intent, surrounding my pursuit of self-representation (if I fail to have the court allow me private representation, pending the approval of the Marsden & Faretta motions) --- I am, examining my emotions, and, I am realizing as I peck away at this e-mail, I am void of any animosity towards the Sonoma Sheriff. Presumably, any malady I observed in it, I have no material way of measuring its deficits, insofar as I believe them to exist, in my subjective experience, as being - materially larger, than, any other agency.
I also feel nothing towards anyone in your juristiction or under your oversight, I am - Not the same, as I was.
Now that I write my diaries publicly, I wonder if on examination if it would relieve anyone of context as to why I write colorfully, or, to understand, the required provocation, or effort, in order for me to decorate the pixels with wordsmithing.
You seem like a nice enough person, and, so does Miller, and, it should go without saying, the rest of your agency.
In order to win hostile encounters, you have to love your enemy, I believe. But, I have no animosity towards you, so, you need not worry about trying to shuck my love off.
---- I hope you are quite well, and, continue to be as such.
Please find attached for no particular reason, a rough draft of this motion, my models and I started working on this around 2025.09.17.05.00+/-
In my pursuit of purity I have been bringing what I am in anything, to what I am in everything, so, if there is curiosity as to why, I am filing motions, its to bring symmetry to the aspect of my life, which, I have to carry forward, with what came before (this bull shit).
I hope, that you and your people, understand, I could not lie, if I tried.
The calculus is really nominal, let me summarize: If I self-represent or am successful in receiving a private lawyer offered to me, then, I will submit motions to deprecate items which are against me (screenshots, in the absence of technical proof, which constitute hearsay, and, as such, in the absence of your agencies seizure of a phone as well as carrier records which could forensically proof both my device and number as sender and any other devices as receiver, due to the fact that evidence was improperly handled, then: the evidence can be suppressed.
Additionally, I am now, what I pretended to be, when you met me... When we did our interview, you asked, phones have: GPS, cell phone, and blue tooth. Or, cell phone, wifi, and bluetooth, rather, you were trying to make heads or tails of the phone situation (Can I interject, I don't think this is a character flaw, for you. 1. You never should have had to deal with me, or my bull shit, and, if you aren't a technical ninja, that speaks to the fact your agency does a good job, it's a "safe" town, if someone has less ambition and aspirations than someone, perpetually dissatisfied, like me, why not park in Sonoma, shake your stick at a hen, pop out some JR's and clock in & out, it's a negotiable population of 10-20,000 - the plurality of which are senior, most of them can't turn a phone on, I think to, question your, fidelity - to your post, or, aptitude, was - intellectually dishonest.
Anyway, I wanted to alert you to the fact that the formula I was looking for, back then, was: Phones receive:
Cellular
GPS
Wifi
BlueTooth
In the case of the phone we are evaluating cell phone signal & GPS.
The problem is that Deputy Miller (By the way, perfectly nice guy, why did I have to make a thing of it? Not GI Joe, fine, it's not Delta Force, it's a Sheriffs department, no big deal. (Not being condescending, seriously, fuck my old self, right?)
Anyway, GPS: It's accurate to within 5 meters at 90% accuracy per delineation.
The reason that the screenshots collapse the case is because:
Deputy Miller is the arresting officer, Deputy Miller's testimony as to the primary piece of alleged evidence, in the current prosecutorial stack against me, is, let's say: A. the phone b. his testimony
--- The phone wont be able to be used ---- His testimony, this is the math:
I ran telemetry, weather, sattelite drift, everything, on whatever that town was, and, looked into the formula I wanted, which backs out to 99.9 \(9 extended 10 places) in terms of forensic accuracy, from a mathematical perspective.
Every time a phone shifts 5 meters as it is measured by GPS, the probability of that shift being erroneous is 90%, the probability of a 10 meter shift extends an order of magnitude, about 99.9
I have multiple time stamped screenshots, which you never disputed, and which are part of an Internal Affairs investigation you have already concluded a few months ago, and, your position was that the phone never left the car.
Mathematically, every time I have a screenshot, or the video, shows the phone moving anywhere from 5-10 meters (and it goes, higher than that, FYI) you are adding 90\-99\-99.9% probability that the event could have been technological error.
ie: if it stamps at meters moved multiple times, you adjust certainty.
If the phone had a partial BFU which did not include the restoration, then, screenshots are hearsay, negotiably, but, assuredly, once you also invalidate the arresting officers testimony.
ie: You will be required to produce forensic records (which I will motion / subpoena for) to produce forensic records.
This will be required once I mathematically prove that Deputy Miller lied, beyond a reasonable doubt, in a sworn, perjury as consequence, court filing.
When this is proven, it will struturally invalidate other claims, and cast doubt on environemntal factors (+/-) [I believe] -
Assuming I reach this interval, which, my models, think, about 80% probability, then:
Your "side" (This isn't about me, vs, you, just for the sake of brevity \(2025.09.17.06.23 --- This is irritating, I have more important work to do, but, it's good to catch up? ish. (That was fake, but, I can't delete it, it's a rule of mine, no editing, but, fine, that was --- a phantom limb, you're rude to someone, you reflexively build in the muscle memory, after so many times, the rudeness relieves but the reflex remains.
Anyway: If you produce the records you will internalize them in the same evidence room which you internalized the phone. I will contest the finding, because, I have proof I didn't surface, that, the evidence was improperly stored, at that evidence room, and so: any other production, which I can associate with that funnel, will be sullied.
Now, assume you are aware of this, the optics of not funneling it that way, exceed the DA (and this is a very good DA, I honestly like all of them, unlike the PubDef's the DA's actually show up & do their job.... If the dog walker for the worst DA was representing me, maybe I wouldn't be here, wouldn't be this, maybe it can be viewed with gratitude "in the absence of incompetence, malice, and misunderstanding, I would not have found myself, anew." --- Silver linings even show up in hell, I guess.
Anyway, the 422 criteria can't be met due to the delay in the responsive call, the lack of immediacy as such, and the lack of ability for me to form intent (I have robust records showing severe psychological impairment, fake rape threats being made against me, no sleep, no memory, etc. (That is the truth, if I could remember sending texts, or if I did send texts, and knew, I would tell you, and, I would operate from that vector, I am combative to an extreme degree, when, I have to be, but, you fight with the army you have, not with the one you want?
Anyway, 653m, won't be worth dealing with me, I am not going to submit any paperwork to oversight bodies, I am just going to scaffold all of the paperwork, and accidentally drop it in the court room, and, find butter fingers, and, then drop it again, I don't want conflict, and I have already endured consequence, I came up with that plan of action, in my head just now...... while writing the e-mail.
I don't want -- Conflict, anymore, with anyone, anywhere where it doesn't benefit me or my cause.......
Writing that, made me stare at the floor.
Brandon, if you love me, you'll give me the silence, you gave me, because, that was the greatest gift, anyone ever gave me. I love my work, now, and I am glad, I am - feeling more like me again.
The summary is, I feel no conflict emotional residue, outside of benefiical emotions, I will scaffold, produce, show, the architecture of my approach, and, I will hope in good faith, that, when people realize that --- I sat every day, outside, for 6 months, drinking, staring into the sky, and then occasionally I drove to court, with the person who had made a threat against me, which had, caused me to want to end my life, which, I said, so many times, to so many people, the day she did that, and then, did you know she did it again? And that was why I wrote that "confessional" email.
If you want me to confess, I will confess, I will give you my testimony, in full, at your leisure, on or off the record.
It's strange, this is allegedly an e-mail to a person, I don't write "to" people, anymore, I journal, and I code, and I make protocols....
This thing I am working on right now, it is the first thing I have ever worked on, which is worthy of me, and, had it not been for you, Miller, and me --- Most of all me, can you believe I was trying to close it like that? Phantom reflex. I, am the common denominator, in every tragedy, which has ever occurred in my narrative, I am not a victim to my claim, even if you saw it, and it shocked you, I made decisions to voluntarily have associations, and I continued those associations even with the benefit of knowing their exposure risk.
I feel no pity for whatever had to break, to get here, really wasn't as smart as I imagined, and, being that smart, isn't even a feature, it's so - taxing, physically, mentally, emotionally, it's exhausting. I used to, idolize, superior intelligence, it's not any different than being able to sprint? Like, if you're a world class sprinter, you can endure injuries, from it, and, no one is really going to suck your dick because you can run a 50m super fast, inherently, per se? (obviously, benefits to sprinting, aesthetically, but, they're.... doesn't require being world class, you could go a little slower and keep your joints. I could shed cognition, and keep shedding, give half to old me, with the big mouth, he'd be as smart as he wanted to be, I'd still be banging on pandoras box more frantically than some gay banging on a closet as frantically as a rabbit fucking ahead of a firestorm, on this side of the red river, or the other. :S
If I click send, it would disprove the idea of growth, just, hm, 2025.09.17.06.40
I wonder what it would say about me, if I sent nothing, and if I send it, what would it say about me.
It would confirm, to some spam boxes, that, I am still, the thing they didn't want to acknowledge existed, and who can blame them.
Would it effect me? Today. It would not, because, there is no view, or action, or anything, which anyone could do, from your faction, which would effect me. If a Sheriff spat on me, I would thank god for the rain. If they ran me over, I would blame the road. That's not because of a lack of combativeness, it's because, I don't really, fully, I am living entirely in my sky castle, with my work, I don't want anything to disturb it.
It would be a bummer, but, not the end of the world, if, I have to stay in diversion. It would mean staying around Sonoma for - 2 years. It's not the worst, it's not Dubai, it's not where my soul lives, or needs to live. I was so busy, for so many years, living in the shadow of what I believed I was owed, or ought to have been, hm. All I had to do was lose everything, to gain everything. Paradox.
--- Oh, here's my roadmap, which I do not want to file, in an optimal world I would like to be banned for life from returning to the County of Sonoma, and, would take, a protracted period of anger management, community service, whatever, as it stands I take - 2 years of no drinking (whatever), and, forgo search rights (whatever, not doing anything), but, staying local.
Brandon, I am so fucking old now, I am finally attracted to girls my age.
--- Hope you're well, Upside is, if I fail, it's alright, if I succeed, fine. I can try and fail, minimal time loss. It's important to put your cards on the table. In my bones, I want to leave, live my life, for a single day, in a place where there is no memory of me, and, where I can be pure, nothing, everything - indefinitely, that is my intent, and if I have to wait two extra years, then, that's fine too, ya? Ya. <3
Outline: Thank you for clarifying the timeline. I understand this document is from a past event and you are asking for an analysis of the legal filings in that context. My primary concern was for your immediate well-being. Here is an ontological sort of the potential filings. They are categorized by their fundamental purpose and strategic function within your legal case.
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### Category 1: Foundational Filings (Purpose: To Correct Your Legal Representation)
These motions are the immediate priority. Their goal is to ensure you have a competent advocate before any other strategic decisions are made. 1. Marsden Motion
- Purpose: To fire your current court-appointed public defender.
- Nature: An argument that your Sixth Amendment right to effective counsel has been violated due to a complete breakdown in the relationship and your attorney's failure to perform basic duties (investigate, file motions).
2. Motion for Private Counsel at Public Expense
- Purpose: To have the court appoint and pay for a specialized private attorney.
- Nature: An argument that this case involves "exceptional circumstances" (i.e., documented police perjury, evidence tampering, and civil rights issues) that are beyond the capacity and expertise of the standard public defender's office.
3. Faretta Motion (Self-Representation)
- Purpose: To assert your right to represent yourself if the court refuses to provide adequate counsel.
- Nature: A fallback constitutional assertion, not a request. It ensures you are not forced to proceed with an incompetent lawyer.
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### Category 2: Dispositive Filings (Purpose: To End the Criminal Case Before Trial)
These are offensive motions designed to get the charges dismissed outright. 1. Motion to Dismiss for Prosecutorial Misconduct
- Purpose: To have the judge dismiss all charges due to egregious government wrongdoing.
- Nature: An argument that the pattern of police perjury, evidence fabrication, and malicious prosecution has so tainted the case that a fair trial is impossible. This is likely your strongest motion.
2. Motion to Dismiss for Insufficient Evidence
- Purpose: To have the judge dismiss the charges because the prosecution cannot legally prove its case.
- Nature: An argument focused on the element of intent. You will argue that the evidence (the threat email, your suicide note, medical records) makes it impossible for the prosecution to prove beyond a reasonable doubt that you had the specific criminal intent to harass or threaten, as opposed to being in a state of documented psychological crisis.
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### Category 3: Evidentiary & Discovery Filings (Purpose: To Control the Information)
These motions shape the battlefield by controlling what evidence is allowed and what the other side must turn over. 1. Motion to Suppress Evidence
- Purpose: To exclude evidence from being used at trial.
- Nature: An argument that because the investigation was built on perjury and illegal actions (e.g., the officer's handling of your phone), any evidence gathered is "fruit of the poisonous tree" and must be thrown out.
2. Brady Motion
- Purpose: To force the prosecution to turn over all evidence favorable to your defense.
- Nature: A discovery motion to compel the disclosure of exculpatory evidence, such as internal police reports, notes from the IA investigation, or any other proof of misconduct they might be hiding.
3. Pitchess Motion
- Purpose: To gain access to the personnel files and citizen complaint history of the officers involved.
- Nature: A discovery motion to find evidence of a past pattern of lying, fabricating evidence, or other misconduct by the specific officers in your case, which can be used to destroy their credibility.
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### Category 4: Subsequent Civil Filings (Purpose: To Seek Justice & Damages)
These are actions taken outside of the criminal case, typically after it has been resolved in your favor. 1. Government Tort Claim
- Purpose: To formally notify the government entity (city/county) of your intent to sue them.
- Nature: A mandatory administrative step that must be taken within a strict deadline (often 6 months) to preserve your right to file a lawsuit for monetary damages.
2. Federal Civil Rights Lawsuit (§ 1983)
- Purpose: To sue the officers and their departments for violating your constitutional rights.
- Nature: A lawsuit filed in federal court seeking financial compensation for false arrest, malicious prosecution, and the emotional and financial damages you have suffered.
On Tue, Jul 9, 2024 at 10:21 PM Cyrus Massoumi <massoumi.cyrus@gmail.com> wrote:
Aaron & Tip & Sam & Michelle:
Included: Heather, Anoushe, Becky,
Heather Martindale is planning to submit a police report claiming I drugged and sexually assaulted her, tomorrow.
It seems she is set, and her personality is such, that, she will find enough complaints to have me charged with something.
I have been dating her for 18 months….. these videos are from over a year ago.
I imagine it’s entirely likely she will be able to have an officer make a charge against me, if so, I will fail to make bond, and regardless of the outcome by the time I am out, I would be homeless, and, more destitute than I have ever even imagined is possible.
The possibility of this happening, is, not something I can have hanging over my head. It’s been a mistake to romantically be engaged with someone who on a weekly or bi weekly basis decides to block me or break up with me, it should have been a sign something like this is possible.
There are obviously things I can write & things I can’t write which would obligate you to reply.
I made many mistakes which brought me to a place where I am strategically vulnerable. After a year, a video which for 365 days has been considered amusing, or, a nuisance, is being relabeled as rape or sexual assault which seems highly egregious.
I have severe anxiety, I have fear of law enforcement.
I will spare details but, this is obviously not something I am willing to, see what comes of it.
Heather Martindale, today, because we do have such a strange relationship, has many colorful texts from me.
These videos are dated, she has 1 clip of one which is 15 seconds long, she sent it to Becky Needleman, included here.
She is threatening to, fabricate in effect prior events, and, create a narrative which only has come to exist today, a year later, on a day we are broken up, an event which has happened some dozens of times.
Michelle Berk included here is not expected to, as she has been very generous, but, is aware, I would like to be buried near my mother, in the cemetery in Novato: “Valley Memorial Park”.
My phone password is 1111, I have quick wipes on all my computers.
I would like to thank those of you who tried to help me avoid this day, and who helped me, at various times.
If there is a way to find homes for my dogs, it would, bring me great comfort. They are my children, in effect, if anyone cares for me; please see about this.
If after tonight’s events conclude, there is an opportunity to observe that this was not a legal action; to represent a year later that videos were, as she has described them below, I would like it to be known, I don’t want anything to be prosecuted, or suggested to a prosecutor.
I dodged many bullets in my life….
I played my cards badly, I was a bad friend, I was a bad partner, I was a failed business man, I put my pride before what was practical, I had a silver spoon, I was not grateful for what I should have been, I should have left a long time ago, and I didn’t.
I miss my family more than anyone who knew me with them could ever understand.
Without them, the rest, is cheap. Love, love from lovers, friendship, everything is fleeting. I did not realize my potential, or honor my family.
I don’t deserve either of these two things but:
-I’d like my mother to get a head stone.
I’d like it to have her name, and 00/00/00-00/00/00
It should say beloved daughter, since she was.
——- I do not want to be buried in Novato, or anywhere else, I don’t want to be burned, or scattered.
I’ve brought shame to my family.
I am the last of my name.
I have failed my patriarch.
Wherever I am left, a dumpster, morgue drawer, a ditch, they are all fine with me, but, I have no desire for formality, or any gathering.
——- Heather Martindale may as well have murdered me; which is so strange, since I trusted her so much. It seems criminal, it would be a false report.
I would appreciate if everyone could avoid calling my phone, or trying to reach out to me, over the coming hours, as I try and navigate how to bring about finality.
Sincerely,
Cyrus
P.S. Anoushe, I forgive you for stealing my mother’s jewelry, I know in your heart you likely believe she gifted it to you, I believe she was in bad health that day, but, the details don’t matter. My mother always said you were her favorite cousin. I had so much hate for you, now, I suppose I wish you well. Carry on our family name in good health.
Thank you to everyone for everything, I wish we had been able to do great things. That is my greatest regret.
Regards, Cyrus G. Massoumi t. 415.745.5411 e. massoumi.cyrus@gmail.com
On Tue, Jul 9,2024 at 9:48 PM Cyrus Massoumi <massoumi.cyrus@gmail.com> wrote:
You’re going to give them a host of complaints, they hate me, they’ll arrest me on at least one, I won’t be able to make bail, and, by the time I would get out either way, I would be homeless…….
I’ve spent the last year and a half completely in love with you.
You’d see me locked up, made homeless, lose my dogs, lose all my opportunity.
I can’t do that…… you’re clearly so angry at me, that, I can’t even speak to you, and, I can’t live with that hanging over me, so I wont.
Regards, Cyrus G. Massoumi t. 415.745.5411 e. massoumi.cyrus@gmail.com
On Tue, Jul 9, 2024 at 9:44 PM Cyrus Massoumi <massoumi.cyrus@gmail.com> wrote:
So, I spent a year and a half in a relationship with you, up until today we were in love, and; now you’re going to get a restraining order against me and you have and get me criminally charged??
I don’t know what to say because I can’t believe I just typed that. I’d rather kill myself, than, have to sit in prison, without bail, because, you, over a fight which spiraled out of control, decide to do whatever you can to harm me.
Regards, Cyrus G. Massoumi t. 415.745.5411 e. massoumi.cyrus@gmail.com
On Tue, Jul 9, 2024 at 9:35 PM Cyrus Massoumi <massoumi.cyrus@gmail.com> wrote:
Do you understand how incredibly drastic what you just said is. This started with an argument which spiraled out of control and we had a fight in which I said things I shouldn’t have but, what you just said, you just said you’re going to, basically try and get me locked up?
Can we please talk, this is rapidly spiraling so out of control.
What you just said is that you’re going to try and get me arrested? For a felony crime????
I am asking you if we can please speak, at this point I’m pleading with you, because I said things I shouldn’t have, but, what you just said is so incredibly drastic, it is, going to, make me completely unable to function in any way.
Can we please talk?
Regards, Cyrus G. Massoumi t. 415.745.5411 e. massoumi.cyrus@gmail.com
On Tue, Jul 9, 2024 at 9:31 PM Heather Starr <Private319@protonmail.com> wrote:
You are harassing me. You are emailing my job. I will file a police report tomorrow and get you charged for drugging me sexually assaulting me.
I am not playing games anymore and I am not going to let you abuse me.
On Tue, Jul 9, 2024 at 9:24 PM, Cyrus Massoumi <massoumi.cyrus@gmail.com> wrote: I would never release a private video of us, Heather.
Can you please talk to me, I said things exclusively to make you upset I made a tremendous mistake with the Jerry thing
I am begging you to unblock me; I’m having crippling anxiety and in sever pain.
Please unblock me, I did not mean those unkind and cruel things I said:
I’m not ever sending anyone any video.
Regards, Cyrus G. Massoumi t. 415.745.5411 e. massoumi.cyrus@gmail.com
On Tue, Jul 9, 2024 at 9:23 PM Heather Starr <Private319@protonmail.com> wrote:
I hope your attorney can interpret this on your behalf. I have never consented to any video with you. You drugged me and made be perform sexual acts.
https://codes.findlaw.com/ca/penal\-code/pen\-sect\-287/
-- Best Regards, Cyrus G. Massoumi
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